Thinking and/or anxious

I was scrolling through my RSS reader while trying to figure out what I felt like yapping about today and I came across this post that sent me to this other post about different types of introverts.

I didn’t realize there were different types of introverts but after reading through the descriptions I decided that “thinking introvert” and/or “anxious introvert” describes me best.

The thinking introvert is someone often lost in thought. They are the daydreamers who spend lots of time reflecting on things. For the thinking introvert, their introversion is driven by their minds typically turning inward, regardless of the social setting they find themselves in. You may see a thinking introvert staring off into the distance, not because they are bored or rude but because they’re contemplating something that has just popped into their head.

The anxious introvert often feels uneasy or self-conscious in social settings. Being around people, especially new people in an unfamiliar setting triggers nervous energy. Whereas a social introvert seeks solitude out of preference, the anxious introvert does so for relief. They feel much more comfortable and relaxed on their own or with a trusted friend or two.

But I’m also kind of all of them. I think it’s true of most of the introverts I know that it depends. Situational introversion. I’m sure it’s true of extroverts as well. I think the key is being around people that allow you to be yourself.

Anyway.

So far this week I’ve worked on TBSOL a bit. And by a bit I mean I’ve tried to fix the same scene several times because words are hard.

I came across this quote from Steven Spielberg in an article I read today:

The language of filmmaking is not something that comes that easily, that instinctively to me. It takes a lot of thought, a lot of walking in circles, a lot of wondering why I’m doing this.

And it’s always nice to be reminded that no matter the medium or the level of achievement at the end of the day the creative process is just a lot of frustration and questioning your life choices.

But that’s also what makes it all so satisfying.