Of Life & Randomness

Giving Fewer F*cks

Resolutions 2018.

Kind of.

I don’t really do resolutions. For some reason the first day of the year is never the time I kick into high gear or get my sh*t together. That usually happens a few months later, around my birthday.

Today is day five of the year, and I’m not sure how the writing resolution is going, but the giving fewer f*cks about anything is shaping up a little better.

By that I mean not overthinking. Not worrying. Not stressing about every little thing. Not doing that thing where I create elaborate doomsday scenarios and let fear take over. I’d like to be done with all of it.

Last year was a bit of a rock bottom year for me, but I think things got a lot better in the second half of 2017, and ever since then I’ve been trying to find my way back to myself with varying degrees of success.

We’ll see what 2018 brings. There’s a lot I’m looking forward to. Bring it.

 


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If it makes you happy…

The Midnight Sisterhood. Notebook #2.

I didn’t write today. I wrote yesterday, and I wrote the day before. But at 4am, I was like, “I think I need to remove this one character from that scene I wrote today…”  And then I was like, “Do I, though?” And then I wasn’t sure. So I spent the day staring at my news feed on Twitter, in a state of perpetual horror and shock, and then the day went poof.

So tomorrow. Tomorrow I will remove this one character from this one scene, and then finish it.

This draft of TBSOL is 100% about making myself happy. I have not, for one second wondered, “Is it good?” Whenever I’d give K things to read before, I’d always ask, “Is it good? Is it well written?” These were the things I was preoccupied with. With this draft, I hand her pages, and I’m just like, “Was it fun to read?” I can usually tell by how much she laughs. Making her laugh makes me happy, and making people happy has been the entire purpose of this book from version one, page one. So, onwards we go.

Today I scheduled Chapter 18 of TBSOL over on Patreon. Coming up next, that which is highlighted, and beyond…

 


Of Life & Randomness

Mist Monsters, Vaginas and Teleportation

Photo Project: 30 Days of Notebooks (1/30)

I spent my morning learning about mist monsters (muy creepy), and — unrelated to that — about a Spanish boy said to be the reincarnation of a much-beloved Buddhist lama, who grew up in a monastery and at eighteen was like, “Eff this shit, I’m out.” He then returned to Spain to hang out at the beach and listen to trance music and make documentaries. All of this I learned courtesy of the Mysterious Universe podcast, which remains my favorite discovery of 2017.

Chapter 17 of the new version of TBSOL is now up on Patreon.

Chapter 17 Sneak peek:

Julianne: Va…nguards? No … Vagabonds… Vaaaacuities…

Kris: Tragic

Julianne: Vag…arious

Kris: I’m never playing Scrabble with you

Julianne: VAGOTONIAAAAAAA

Kris: Is that even a real word?

Julianne: Play Scrabble with me and find out.

Kris: I can’t believe how reluctant you are to write VAGINA. Are you sure you’re a lesbian?

From here, the conversation moves to teleportation, because any conversation about vaginas usually segues into quantum mechanics and the transfer of matter. At least, it always does in my experience. “Write what you know,” they say. Well. This is what I know.

Stepping back for a moment, I can see that this post is all over the place. Insightful quote about writing followed by talk of mist monsters; reincarnated Buddhist lamas followed by vaginas and teleportation. I look at this post, and I think, I should maybe have a coherent theme? But no. No. I’m just gonna go ahead and blog the way I think.

So back to the mist monsters: sometimes they paralyze and attack you in your house, but apparently turning on the light makes them go away. Pro-tip: Never turn off the light. I also learned that sometimes aliens abduct you and put you into some kind of gel liquid you can breath through. I have no pro-tip for this.

Today I’m grateful for: Not being someone who gets attacked by mist monsters or abducted and put into breathable alien gel.

And now I’m off to catch up on Las Estrellas. Look how cute they are. <3

 


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Happy Thanksgiving

There’s no Thanksgiving in France, and unlike Halloween (which I love), it’s not really a holiday I ever celebrated before moving here. What I do miss, however, is pumpkin pie. I really, really, really, REALLY love pumpkin pie. So, this weekend, I’ll be making my own. Hopefully, I won’t burn it like last time.

And while I don’t really celebrate Thanksgiving in the traditional sense, I do celebrate giving thanks.

Gratitude, I think, is one of the most powerful things in the world, and I intend to show more of it.

So, thank you. Thank you for reading this, and most of all, thank you for existing.

Today, I thought I’d share a few articles I’ve collected on my travels through the Internet today:

  • Giving Thanks to the “Not Me” generation – Lynne McTaggart, author of The Power of Eight, discusses how thinking about and doing for others is the key to unlocking happiness in yourself.
  • Perpetual Thanksgiving – Author and artist, Austin Kleon, shares a free, downloadable gratitude template he created with his son, and a quote by Thoreau on giving perpetual thanks.
  • Out of this World Cornbread Dressing Recipe – Courtesy of NASA. I will probably not be trying this…
  • 22 Famous Writers Talk Books They’re Most Thankful For – A great list from such authors as Stephen King, Joyce Carol Oates, Rainbow Rowell, and more. And since we’re on the subject, the book I’m most grateful for is Annie On My Mind by Nancy Garden. This book literally fell from the shelf at the bookstore and landed at my feet at a time when I desperately needed it. No one believes me, but it seriously fell from the shelf as though someone pulled on it and let it drop. So, thank you, invisible librarian spirit.
  • The Art of Ornamental Orange Peeling (1905) – In case you need some last minute table decoration ideas, the Public Domain Review has your back.

Of Life & Randomness

Hello, C’est Moi

I descaled my coffee machine yesterday, and here’s the thing about descaling the coffee machine: it’s not fun. It’s not fun at all. Especially since the descaling solution comes with zero instructions. I had to resort to YouTube, which made my cat very angry because he hates it when disembodied voices drift out of the laptop.

However, after cleaning the coffee machine inside and out, it turns out my coffee did taste much better this morning. The angry red light was right.

So, if your coffee machine has an angry red light, and like me, you’ve been ignoring it for weeks because you know that cleaning out the coffee machine is not fun at all, just do it. Do it. You’ll thank me later. You won’t thank me as you’re doing it — you’ll probably hate me then, but later — much later — you’ll thank me.

I wanted to kick-off my newfound dedication to blogging by reminding you that I still care about you and your coffee. In case you thought I didn’t.

It’s been a weird few years. I fell into a deep well of depression for entirely too long, and crawling out of it has been a slow and arduous process. But here I am at the other side, and I’m feeling much, much more like my old self.

And, like my old self, I’d like to get back to blogging every day, or at least more frequently.

There was a point there where I honestly couldn’t remember what I used to do on the Internet. Hours of my life got sucked up into the void of random social media. Tumblr. Twitter. Instagram. Snapchat. Back to Twitter. Hours, days, weeks, months, years — all gone, with nothing to show for it. I stopped reading books. I stopped creating things. I stopped sharing because I had nothing to share. I was in a constant state of anxiety about everything.

I hit rock bottom some time around April, and just went, “Whoa, enough.” It’s been getting progressively better since. I’ve started reading, journaling, meditating, doing yoga, walking more, eating better, sleeping better, and, most importantly, writing.

One of the first (and best) changes I made was cutting Twitter from my morning routine. I used to reach for the phone first thing and read the news, which was a great way to start the day anxious and depressed. I cut the Internet out of my morning routine altogether, eventually.

Now I wake up. Drink water. Do yoga. Meditate. Listen to a podcast or audiobook while making/eating breakfast. Journal. Write. Then check the Internet. Sometimes I don’t do it all. Sometimes I wake up late and have to shift things around. Sometimes I’m lazy. But the foundation is there, and it’s been a blessing.

So, what have I been … continue reading…


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I’m back to blogging, but first, let’s talk TBSOL

Last time I wrote on my blog about TBSOL was back in November of 2015, and I said I wasn’t going to talk about TBSOL for a very long time.

Well, here we are, two years later, and I’m finally ready to talk about TBSOL again.

Today I scheduled “Chapter 17” of the new draft over on Patreon. Last week I finished what I’ve been thinking of as “Part I” of the book. There’s a lot left to write, but all of it feels doable in a way that hasn’t felt doable in a very long time. Mostly, the book feels fun again. It’s also (I think) a bit more ridiculous than FV. It has 100% more Nutella poetry, in any case. continue reading…


TV Talk

Supergirl 2.08: Sanvers Recap

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So, I went into this episode thinking that Maggie might not even be in it, and pretty much resigned to having little to no Sanvers interaction. But boy was I wrong about that. continue reading…


TV Talk

Supergirl 2.07: Sanvers Recap

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TV Talk

Supergirl 2.06: Sanvers Recap

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*deep breath* Okay, here we are at 2.06. But before I start this emotional/heartbreaking recap, I’m going to grab some hot chocolate, a warm blanket, and a box of tissues.

Okay, I’m back.

Here we go…  continue reading…


TV Talk

Supergirl 2.05: Sanvers Recap

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I’m caffeinated and showered and ready to dive into another Sanvers recap. If you missed my previous ones, here you go:

Supergirl 2.03: Alex/Maggie Recap

Supergirl 2.04: Alex/Maggie Recap

Up, up and away…  continue reading…